VIS - Lonely Lyrics

This is fictional story meant to cover the topic of abuse
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It's too cold for arguments, let's get back in the house
Feeling like a boy that's been dragged downstairs then doused
With gasoline mixed with a couple of other things
Been tossed in a room and see what a match could bring
This story took three thousand tries, ten thousand lives
And all of that just to writhe, inside
Why I'm intoxified, by my
Need to please them to try to feel needed
But my three thousand tries is all that I've accomplished this season
I've been feeling lonely
Don't know what a home means
Feeling like my home is torn away
Don't know how much pain that I can take
I've been feeling lonely
Don't know what a home means
Feeling like my home is torn away
Don't know how much pain that I can take
I'm done with all this shit, I'm leaving
All of this just to say
You won't see me next weekend
I'm tired of running away
From my own feelings as they pushing deep down inside of my system
Can I ever go back to normal
I never will just miss those
Days when dusk to dawn was the only retribution
I finally had the strength to come to a resolution
That the way to get out of this nightmare, night fears
Is to face my demons and never walk away
I'm just another f*cking human
Will there ever come a day
That I wont have to beg to god to keep me alive for two more days
I'm struggling for air, I'm clasping both my hands
Just for missing a chair, here we go again
Another time where I have to explain my bruises
To everyone around, make up more excuses
I'm mentally assuming that every little thing is my fault
But alas, I'm persuaded to think that the fault is that I'm not normal
I've been feeling lonely
Don't know what a home means
Feeling like my home is torn away
Don't know how much pain that I can take
I've been feeling lonely
Don't know what a home means
Feeling like my home is torn away
Don't know how much pain that I can take