Thinking now, when did it get hard to find myself
I'm shrinking now, I thought I saved myself by coming out
I can't stop, fixating and dating the past and
I want more than anything to find my lover
You say, life can get better write down some letters
And I feel, dramatic enough to let me bleed out
I wanna live the life I fought so hard to create
And I wanna give myself to someone for real
I know it's hard sometimes but you just gotta get over it
I know it's easier said than done but after the storm comes bliss
I know you crave material things you want to be held at night
I know it looks easy to go but you just gotta put up a fight
Drinking now, wondering if this is the formula
Rinsing down, all of the life we built up drowning now
We won't stop, erasing & making the past much
Worse than what we feel we can bare
My guard up, I'm used to trusting just myself but
Now I seek, someone to show me what life can be
I want to kill the version I thought I had to live
So I can appreciate what's left to breathe
I know it's hard sometimes but you just gotta get over it
I know it's easier said than done but after the storm comes bliss
I know you crave material things you want to be held at night
I know it looks easy to go but you just gotta put up a fight
I don't want it, I'm done with the life that I promised
Myself f*ck it, and if it makes them mad then they can go and suck it
I can't be living breathing overeating to vomit
With people pleasing & sonnets
Shakespeare, live in fear, wipe a tear while smiling here
Judgment super high, stones I throw to the glasses, phallus, I don't want all this madness
I rebuke your gossip, give these dogs some chocolate be like woof woof
I know it's hard sometimes but you just gotta get over it
I know it's easier said than done but after the storm comes bliss
I know you crave material things you want to be held at night
I know it looks easy to go but you just gotta put up a fight
When did it get hard to find myself, I'm shrinking now