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Black death is all I find within my mind
I need to know why I'm standing here and not left behind
So sick of blaming, no need for shaming
All I can think about is how all of you just love to hate me
Pretending that I'm still okay and not ashamed
Depending on my mental state to be the blame
F*ck it off and start a purge so I can steer things clear
That's all you need to hear
(But it's killing me)
Resist the urge so I'll still feel fine
(Terror in your dreams)
My visions real but I still feel blind
Someone, please stop me before I hurt myself
I don't know why I'm acting so strangely
Some days, I wonder whether it's all too much
I need to know if there's someone to save me
Something inside me is breaking through my chest
This anxiety's become my arch-nemesis
Addiction, affliction pushes me to the edge
This mental states f*cking killing me
Don't you f*cking know, I'm record breaking
Self inflicted and my head is always aching
But I can't forsake the lies
That I've seen with my own eyes, all I want is just a f*cking disguise
Ha
You know I'm not the only one
This torment has just begun, hold my head up towards this gun and face me
You f*cking failure
Bitch
(But it's killing me)
Resist the urge so I'll still feel fine
(Terror in your dreams)
My visions real but I still feel blind
For all I know I'm in a dream, will someone please save me
For all I know I'm in a dream, will someone please save me
Oh
Resist the urge so I'll still feel fine
(Terror in your dreams)
My visions real but I still feel blind
Someone, please stop me before I hurt myself
I don't know why I'm acting so strangely
Some days, I wonder whether it's all too much
I need to know if there's someone to save me
Something inside me is breaking through my chest
This anxiety's become my arch-nemesis
Addiction, affliction pushes me to the edge
This mental states f*cking killing me
You're killing me