WesydeUnderground - Letters Lyrics

I may not be the type of person that spends a whole lot of time looking back
But right now, for my own peace of mind, this is just something I gotta do

These are the letters that I never wanted to write
But this might be just what I need to better my life
Now with that said, I'm hanging by a thread
So listen as the letters that I've written get read

I don't even know where to begin, my family took you in like you were my kin
You and me were best friends, back in the 7th grade
You know we promised to be true when Uncle Sam shipped you away
Fast forward 4 years, chokin' on my tears, Jared just got killed
And I'm running from my peers
The fear...
I've never been so afraid, you sent a plane ticket and I'm on my way
It's time for better days
Now I'm 17, you were 18 when you played your scheme and talked me into your dream
And made it seem like you really cared for me
10 months of matrimony before you're cheating on me
You never told me that you stopped taking the pill
Stealing my seed, and bleeding me dry
On the nights I wasn't getting fried all I did was sit and cry
Wishing I would die
Hurting myself and killing my pride, you left me dead inside
But time is on my side
Because my beautiful seed that you took from me
Can only grow to see how this history makes up what her mother be
And makes up what her father be, and that don't f*ckin' bother me

These are the letters that I never wanted to write
But this might be just what I need to better my life
Now with that said, I'm hanging by a thread
So listen as the letters that I've written get read
These are the letters that I never wanted to write
These are the letters that I never wanted to write

Now I hope you're sittin, cuz this might take a minute
And while I'm spittin, you better listen
Because I hate the vision that I see when I'm looking back at me
I'm looking back at you too, the man I never knew
The dad I never had, the reason for my sadness
The madness in my veins, at 4 years old you gave me away
But certain memories stay no matter how much I stray
The hate remains just like a strain in my brain
I find it hard to maintain against the inane thoughts that remain
The disdain that I retain
I hate the sound of your name, and if I have to further explain
Let's entertain the thought of how quickly you were bought
You never taught me a f*cking thing, except for how to hate my inner being
The constant questioning of my dreams
The family that you took from me
The closed-fisted murdering of my unborn siblings
And if I could drain every ounce of blood that we share, I swear
If it took the death of me I wouldn't care, to be aware
To realize, with pure eyes, without your lies inside
Just before I died, that's right

These are the letters that I never wanted to write
But this might be just what I need to better my life
Now with that said, I'm hanging by a thread
So listen as the letters that I've written get read
These are the letters that I never wanted to write
These are the letters that I never wanted to write

So read the last page on my last days for my past ways
For the bridges I blazed, the paths that I layed
The marks that I made while marching ahead
And all the times that I strayed and couldn't clear out my head
I know I said, "These are the letters that I never wanted to write"
But this is key for me to better my life
So tight, writing it up
The pad is soaking it up
My pen is seething as I'm bleeding while I'm wrappin' up the cut

These are the letters that I never wanted to write
But this might be just what I need to better my life
Now with that said, I'm hanging by a thread
So listen as the letters that I've written get read
These are the letters that I never wanted to write
These are the letters that I never wanted to write
These are the letters that I never wanted to write
But this might be just what I need to better my life
These are the letters that I never wanted to write
But this might be just what I need to better my life
These are the letters that I never wanted to write
These are the letters that I never wanted to write