Xavier - I Know It Doesn't Mean Much Lyrics

I feel like a champagne glass cause
Stress filled me up to the brim
Then people dropped me and I shattered
Now I'm moving backwards
Asking what happened
It's getting hard to keep track of
All my actions
I'm relapsing
I think I need to be kept inside
Of a padded room
I laugh at you
To distract myself
From me and my attitude
Why can't I follow through?
My soul feels hollow
What if my lyrics are hollow too
Hearts abused
Hard to move
Why am I so stubborn man
Why can't I just understand
Learn from my mistakes
And move on into another plan
But I can't do it right
I find myself staying up all night
Asking how to win this fight

Why can't I win this fight?

So I just stay at home
People try to help
I push them out
Then complain that I'm alone
What type of shit is that
I get so attached
To the point I start snapping
Saying things I want to take back
But I know I can't retract them
So I'm sorry for all the damage I've caused
And the family I've lost
And the fact that it all
Happens to fall
Back on my shoulders
I'm the reason that this pain is here
And sorry doesn't fix It
All it does is waste my tears
And it's taken years to realize I'm the issue
And I know I don't get the right to say that I miss you

But I miss all of you

So imma do my best to better myself
And better my health
I get that I fell
But I can get back up if I man up and accept all the help
And maybe one day our relationship can be better as well
I know I might need a little luck
And it might be a little tough
But this goes to everyone that I've f*cked
Over and I know
I know that
I know it doesn't mean much