Shouldn't Be Alive Video (MV)

Woke up in a hospital, I shouldn't be alive
They asked how much I took, I lied, I said like 4-5
The doctor offered food, I told her "I would rather starve"
They put me on some meds, but even then not feelin' fine
Lookin' to my right, I see my momma and she cryin
Lookin' to my left, I see my family still wants me
I was being stupid, nigga, didn't know I got it
Only God could kill me and he still wants me around here
Group therapy got me in my feelings
I was angry at myself, I wasn't even kickin
"I don't belong here," what I told myself, but I admit it
I'm just an addict who needs help, but didn't wanna get it
So now I'm goin through the motions and I'm group president
Two days ago I didn't wanna be a resident
All the shit that I was doin felt so irrelevant
I just wanna go back home and stack up my dead presidents

But baby ima share my message
So lil' nigga count your blessings
Value all the time that you got on this Earth nigga
I know you in pain, but just know that your worth's bigger

Aye

Stay alive for me
Shout out to my mom cus she gon' ride for me
Kicked the f*ckin xannies so don't offer me
Came out with a plan the money all for me, yeah

Aye

Baby talk to me
I'll give you my heart and it won't cost a fee
I'm gon break this bread with my whole family
You don't understand me, I'm not sorry, yeah
(I'm not sorry)
Stay alive for me yeah
(I'm not sorry)
Aye, stay alive for me yeah
(I'm not sorry)
Aye, stay alive for me
Stay alive for me
Stay alive for me
(I'm not sorry)

Baby talk to me
I'll give you my heart and it won't cost a fee
I'm gon break this bread with my whole family
You don't understand me, I'm not sorry, yeah