Young MA - Open Scars Lyrics

Uh, no love lost it was never love
I lost sight found god a more better love
I ain't never went soft, I'm forever thug
And you ain't god so you could never judge
I had guys I called brothers leave me in the storm
That's why my heart still cold even when it's warm
All of a sudden they forget like I ain't put 'em on
And never had to owe me shit I did it off the arm
Still fightin' demons duckin' bullets pullin' thorns
It's funny how they still sleep like I ain't blowin' horns
This female look like a male like is somethin' wrong
Nah still suck my dick bitch nothing's wrong
This whole industry is rigged I don't need awards
I done things never did and still didn't get applaud
Like I ain't got W's across the f*ckin' board
And my mom became the goat when I was f*ckin' born
0-4-0-3-9-2
And I'm only 5'7 but my gun is 5'2
It's Red Lyfe 'til I die, but my jewelry sky blue
I don't need material shit my aura could shine too
Big motion
Punchin' the clock till my times due
And anythin' makin' me wealthy I'm doin' it times two
Big healthy, no liquor, just water and lime juice
No more drugs somethin' I put my spirit and mind to

I feel like somethin' is always missin'
No matter how much I do
How much I succeed
I always just feel like it's never a hundred percent
That's what makes me have that bittersweet feelin'
You nah mean? Like this is when I first experienced what death really is
A part of you died with your brother?
Right, basically

For the past three years I let my fans down
I lost faith and I couldn't understand how
I had to go and free my mind and let my hair down
Without the henny I see everythin' clear now
It's somethin' 'bout the industry, it feel weird now (feel weird now)
It's like the music ain't music (it ain't music)
It ain't hittin like (it ain't hittin like)
You don't feel it like (you don't feel it like)
It's like they don't care now
It's just somethin' for you to hear now
It's like the world shifted, too much confusion
And when I lost the passion for music is when my world ended
I was distracted by trauma all of the drama
From girlfriends to my mama f*ckin' my mind up
To hurtin' my health and seein' doctors
Down to about four, five, six friends on the roster
It's funny when you lit, it's a whole line up
But this is part of the game I took the pen and I signed up
Broke up with depression Let go my anxiety
Turn my back on the devil And neglect the society
Face a reality, acceptin' the pain inside of me
No more judgin' my honesty
No more judgin' my honesty
Recovery on velocity
The liquor wasn't hidin' my pain it was hidin' me
Lookin' at life like Why would you lie to me?
Like why would you lie to me?
Spirit crack heart broke my love was on modesty
Decayin' my quality
Decreasin' my quantity
Catchin' up to my truths finally meetin' my prophecy

Uh, I swear to God life was kickin' my ass
May seem like I had it good but mentally it was bad
Just to get my brother back I'll give up all of this cash
And I'll buy a flight just to take a trip to the past
Trust issues won't change that's just somethin' I have
I keep a lawn mower just to see the snakes in the grass
And I build a fence just to keep the snakes in the grass
And I keep a hawk just to eat the snakes in the grass
Down on my deathbed but God healin' me fast
He got other plans for me this just part of the task
Smilin' was a disguise it was tears under that mask
Suffocatin' inside for years under that mask
No regrets 'Cause when I lost love I found peace
When I finally dug deep nigga I found a beast
Since 2020 I was losin' I was down three
I locked in Finished the album in nine weeks
The streets hungry as soon as I'm cookin' The town eats
Only my niggas at the table 'cause they found seats
Heal first, find peace, find keys, mind free
First step find God, next step find me