Lightin cigarettes, clouded head
Dirty knots, locks of dread
Pour me up another drink
Anything to sink my misery
Table top, lined rows
Sniffin high on the low
Roll another up, feelin so un done
All these after parties, one night stands
Oxy with some Vicodin
Painfully sets the mood
My heart is numb, my mind confused
A recipe for sabotage
Oh I'm so lost, I'm so lost
And I'm lonely
These signs, they're all telling me
What you can't see
And I cannot think but to hurt you
(Don't do it...)
If it's the only way to make you learn
You seem to forget I'm always first, surreal
(I know... god damn)
Inducing pain don't you go blamin
Someone for somethin that
You know is so wrong
(I get it...)
Ah ah ah. Now I'm cookin up a recipe
And it's you who can only judge me
You know, trust me
(I know this...)
I'm on my knees. Won't you help me
Hear my pain plead. Please
Double shots, tall cups
Double vision, f*cked up
Lay me down can't hardly think
Just wanting the pain to go away
Late night falls, early morning, throwed
I'm rollin one up
For the sake of the road
A substitute for the love
I'm feeling so un done
All these after parties, one night stands
Codeine, percs, and DXM
Painfully set the mood
My heart is numb, my mind confused
A recipe for sabotage
Oh I'm so lost. I'm so lost, and I'm lonely
These signs, they're all telling me
What you can't see
And I cannot think but to hurt you
(Don't do it...)
If it's the only way to make you learn
You seem to forget I'm always first, surreal
(I know... god damn)
Inducing pain don't you go blamin
Someone for somethin that
You know is so wrong
(I get it...)
Ah ah ah. Now I'm cookin up a recipe
And it's you who can only judge me
You know...
(Dammit I know this...)
I'm on my knees. Won't you help me
Hear my pain plead. Please
You told me...
I love you more than you love yourself
And you don't realize that
You told me you're emotionally detached
And with that I can understand the fact
You also told me you have no expectation
When it comes to me
And in reality I can say the same for myself
And sometimes it's hard to see the light
When you're suffering in the dark
It's a toxic love that can tear you apart
I been thinkin bout ya
Thinkin bout me, baby, I mean all day
I know what I'm givin to ya
And I know it ain't short from cold
I been sinkin down, ridin round
Heavy in a dark place
I know it hurts when ya hear it
I hope you know, I know
I keep the drugs on me baby
You ain't never come in first place
I got the flask full
Always wit the rum, never low, you know
I know it hurts when ya hear it
But I'm bein honest, always
You see...
I have a toxic kind of love for you, yeah, yeah
I have a toxic kind of love with you, yeah, yeah
I have a toxic kind of love for you, yeah, yeah
I have a toxic kind of love to you
I gotta be numb to ya
Like my mindset always
I sniff a line, puff a drag, take a shot. Oh
It ain't easy for me baby
Pain pumpin throughout my veins
I can't stop it. Can't stop
I have a toxic kind of love for you
I have a toxic kind of love with you
Oh I, Oh I
I know I know, oh I