I used to think I'm better off alone
But all of this separation is killin
Cryin' while I stare at my phone
This kinda hurt is a brand new feelin
And that night I looked into the mirror
I didn't know who was there
Suicidal thoughts have never been clearer
And now I'm alone and scared
Everything she told me I know that I deserve
I know that I'm absurd
I know I can't be heard
It's hard to text my thoughts when my eyes are getting blurred
I'll die, give me the word
I'll try to leave this earth
You say I'm a good person, I sadly disagree
I'm sad so I'll concede
I'm mad that I deceived you
My body wanna be better, my mind just wants to leave
I'm trying to believe my mind isn't in pieces
This is what happens when I disregard
And now I am gonna listen to my heart
I know it's hard when we live so far
But I can't imagine us living apart