Talking to the Wall Video (MV)

Last I was here was two thousand and ten
And by then I've made like a thousand of sins
I know that you're mad, I hear the sound of resentment
But after all I did yea you found me again
And changed my frown to a grin 'cos you accepted me like this
When I tried to reach impossible heights as a bird that was flightless
And in the past few weeks, I've been weak. So will you be there whenever I'm in need
And provide me with your love beyond belief
'Cos lately I've been losing this battle with self doubt
And I never noticed that I'm disregarding my health now
While the people that are helping don't even know that they help out
'Cos every conversation I have is valuable wealth found
And I'm waiting by the window for the ambulance sirens
Because I find serenity and the ambient silence
Rewarding me with boredom and the heaviest eyelids
So lately I've been feeling like I'm buried alive
It's the curtain call for me, I've burnt all my bridges
So ain't no turning back and I know you've been hurt by decisions
That I have made in my life, but you're still yearning and wishing
That I return to your church and learn of your burdens and missions
I know I've cursed and I've flirted, diverted paths and reversed and
Reverted back to your sermons, I know I've hurt you a lot
But these words I'm rehearsing are to avert the disturbance of evil
And to ask myself if I'm deserving or not. Am I

I'm sorry that I bother you with questions
I know I never learn from my lessons
But I need someone to help me out that I can trust
And I know I'm always asking for direction
To improve what I see in my reflection
But the eyes of those who judge, cold like winters touch, they don't get why
I'm talking to the wall
Sometimes I lose myself in thoughts until
I'm talking to the wall
But I'm not lonely in your presence when
I'm talking to the wall
I don't feel lost at all, when I have you to call, yea

Lately I been staying up 'til 2:45 I don't know what I feel I don't know why I cry
I don't turn to people 'cos people have hurt me my whole life
But when it's you no more tears shed, it's dry
I don't care no more fears cause it's fine 'cos I'm fine
All your guidance has me guided like a drawn chalk line
Even though I stray you take me back
Even though I run away you never turn your back on me 'cos
You will always be there for me even when I'm feeling lonely
All these people by my side but they don't know my truest story
All they see is youth and glory all they say is please don't worry
How they gonna pretend that you're unaware of all their stories
I've made mistakes in my past please forgive me for doing bad
I'm sorry to the ones I've wronged I truly wish good health upon
I find peace in the setting many people won't come
I'm just tryna stay humble and stay wholesome
I just find peace in your presence feels like heaven
Feels like I can do whatever I wanna do when I gotta do it
You will hold me over and love me when I am going through it

I'm sorry that I bother you with questions
I know I never learn from my lessons
But I need someone to help me out that I can trust
And I know I'm always asking for direction
To improve what I see in my reflection
But the eyes of those who judge, cold like winters touch, they don't get why
I'm talking to the wall
Sometimes I lose myself in thoughts until
I'm talking to the wall
But I'm not lonely in your presence when
I'm talking to the wall
I don't feel lost at all, when I have you to call, yea