Tuesday sometime after noon
Three one twenty two
Stay prepared
For this
I'm used to this feeling of unrest
I'll ink my pen n wait til
My body gives up that's when I rest
You cleaned my mess up n all
I did was create a f*cking test
Of patience
Contemplation
Suicidal thoughts cured thru musical meditation
As if i'm seeking some pseudo elevation
Ironically, I just stay stuck in the depth of my dark creation
Outside just to feel the cold cuz I'm F*cking numb
This changed me forever but look at
The disaster I've done
You don't deserve this
I told u since the
Beginning I'm nothing
So if it helps u feel better miss
Then believe me
Wait you already do
Reread ur words I don't believe to be true
But In your head ur on an honesty tube
But yet I shake my head
But hey been wanting to tell u
The other day matched with this dude this perfect shade of blue
If I had gold I'd take a paint brush And paint my phone like the sky (cuz I love it)
Maybe it was you that was always right
F*ck it what a delight
Gone forever into the night
Let me be right,
God save the only soul that made me Feel the worlds alright,
I waited a lifetime to meet her, this Cant be the end i look and it's no Where in sight ,
Here to stay im cemented in my ways Demented in my days
F*ck the pain
With a knife in my chest
The devil can stab my heart but my Angels and God knows best-
F*ck this test
I'll be here , sorry about the mess
Early am
Monday two twenty eight
Twenty two
Hate Mondays
They always spent missing you baby
Hope you're doing okay
Wish we could talk about what you Almost told me
Whatever eating at your mind
I hate that you have to deal with Lonely
You deserve so much better baby Trust me
One day you'll see
How u are gonna be living your Destiny
We'll look back at these days
The hazy fueled times
Where I felt as if the biggest crime Had occurred
You were in fear of being heard
Fret not my love
I just prayed to God for you looking High and above
Thanking him for bringing name to You in this chapter
Although it's a mess
Fueled with challenging tests
Its the stress
That fades away in your presence
Its the way you illuminate the Darkness
Light you up baby spark it
I hardened my heart then it softened And now it's torn apart
As we've had to part ways most days Adjusting
Like the currents that sway...
Forever yours though it remains
Call me insane but through the pain you have no idea
The growth I have gained
Your super glue hitting like novacane
By your side I'll always stay
You not remember but I am the sand while you are the waves
Stripped raw
F*ck the norm the man made rules and laws
I told you a long time ago you deserve someone in your life who would give you their all
And I promised I'll keep that because I know.
Whenever I fall
You're there to catch me no fear of withdrawal
March seven twenty two